Friday morning and all is ... not exactly well, but at least OK. A little bit of chest pain this morning, but it eased on rest. Still, it's irritating and not a little scarey.
I've about decided to quit writing. I apparently have no new ideas that are worth the effort and when I do have an idea, it disappears before I can get to the computer to write.
I blew all my good ideas on non-publishable stuff. I've tried to make it publishable, but it loses something in translation. I guess I just suck.
The thing is, I've always wanted to be a writer. All my life, I've written stories. I loved making up tales about things I see, ideas I have, stuff I hear. I've been doing it as long as I can remember.
But now, I can't think of anything worth writing anymore. I'm apparently too stupid since my brain damage, to think clearly. I keep coming back to the same storylines. I've tried to submit them, but no one wants them.
So I suppose I should just give up. I'll never be a great writer. Heck, I'll never even be a mediocre writer. I'm just a sucky writer.
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Don't give up! I'm a new poster on AW, but I've enjoyed the posts I've seen by you (though I've had to forgive you for UGA...I'm a Vol. ;)).
ReplyDeleteI think we all have self-loathing moments, but it's not worth giving up if you love it. Just try to remember why you did it in the first place. Do it for enjoyment, not to be published, ya know? Easier said than done, I'm sure.
My friend send me 3 A.M. Epiphany and it has lots of good topics to get your juices flowing. If you are looking for something to jump start you again?
I think I can...I thinkl I can...
ReplyDeleteYeah, lame-o and childish, even, but true!
If ya love it, do it! Period. End. Of. Story.
Eventually the love will shine out of a story you write!
(clicked from the absolute water cooler, if you wondered...)
Feel better soon.